Day 14, 12:08
The city has raised a good mood. While everyone is still shaken up by what happened in the forest and some point to see me through, the streets are quiet, enjoying these last days of winter with little snow remains resting on the roofs and windows. Evansville is preparing to the arrival of spring with special interest.
I stop at one of the windows. It is difficult to decide on one thing when there is so exposed. My indecision grows with each passing second contemplating the goods. I woke
intending to give him an interesting book, maybe old, who successfully arouse the curiosity of Denia and soon to finish the shopping session with Gabriel. But it takes three hours round and neither have I realized that the time passed so quickly.
- we go in? "Asked Gabriel, standing next to me .- Perhaps here we have more luck. According
.-
-yield, heading towards the entrance to escape the cold and enjoy the local heating .- Thanks for this, I know I'm a damn indecisive.
"Do not worry, I also spent much time trying to find something that convinces me .- I said, dedicating another of her wonderful smile.
So far this morning I learned from him that is a lover of science, skiing and white beans. Which I think is a very exotic mix and somewhat disgusting for food. It's too easy to be yourself at your side, I have to remind me every few seconds that some things are better not known. I do not understand why so hard to hide some doubts when I've been doing with the rest of the world several years. What is it?
- How long will you stay?
I do not know, but not much. Now that the police have taken over everything and I see that Denia is in good hands I'll have to return to classes, I have to get me out of the course. I tell my parents that have nothing to worry about me .- reveals some regret in his voice.
"Oh, go ... - answer without knowing what else to say.
guess it's too early to say that I regret his departure, for I saw in him a good friend. Although what I most want to let you know. Gabriel looks at me a few seconds, hoping for something more, before smiling briefly and turned to continue inspecting the bookstores.
- How about this - I ask, trying to break the awkward silence. Cojo
pen carefully in my hands, bringing it closer to my eyes to see small crystals forming the structure of the object. There is not a piece of uncovered surface, the pen shines by reflecting the colors of their surroundings. Must cost a bundle, but it is a wonderful gift.
- You like? "Gabriel is concerned, frowning.
"It's great to go crazy Denia.
"Funny .- says, laughing .- This is what I've bought me next to an ancient book that could be used as a diary.
- In serio?- me vuelvo hacia él, compartiendo su risa.- Creo que entonces tendré que seguir buscando. Tienes buen gusto.
-Lo mismo puedo decir de ti. Eso o los dos tenemos uno pésimo.- bromea, señalándome con el dedo otro estante.- ¿Y eso de allí?
Me acerco para ver a qué se refiere. Sobre una cajita abierta descansa un colgante en forma de búho bañado en plata que tiene por ojos dos brillantes. No es tan atractivo como la pluma, pero creo que servirá.
-Creo que no voy a encontrar nada mejor y está bastante bien.- decido, cogiéndolo con la intención de pagar.- ¿Vamos?
-Por supuesto. Bueno, ahora te toca hablar a ti. Te he contado toda mi life.
guide
After a brief greeting to the clerk, left the box on the counter next to cash and wait for him into the bag to get out.
"The life of someone who has spent his whole life here has nothing funny .- I warn you, taking the bag and waiting for the money left .- But I say I hate white beans.
"Oh, I'm doomed not to find a Jewish mate .- ironic.
"Sorry .- accepting the money, I go abroad again, knowing that our time together is coming to an end. No more excuses to continue.
"I'll forgive you liked me. Do you have idea what they will study next year? - I questioned, trying not to deviate from the topic.
I do not know, nothing attracts me in particular. I guess I'll end decided at the last minute .- admit, shrugging his shoulders .- But I'll go to the capital. I feel bad leaving my friends, but I need to get out.
- Will they stay?
"Not everyone. Ethan had intended to stay until her sister Adriana was over and he will do the same. They are like a pack .- River before proceeding with the plans of all .- Dylan will go away, he hates this place. Taylor stays and ... Well, they are the ones I care about.
Gabriel nods, turning her head the front. Is thinking something, so I keep quiet and I'm just walking, heading towards my house.
"But not even friendship could hold you in Evansville. It must be very strong which makes you hate this site.
"You said it, this city will not let you be yourself .- I remember not wanting to dwell too much on the matter.
"It lets you be yourself if you are not as expected .- corrected.
I have a feeling you know I keep a secret and trying sonsacármelo. But that makes no sense. What does it matter to a college kid?
- And any girl? - Asked, slipping into my thoughts bring me back to reality.
- Girl? No, no. None. Now, of course .- the latter is added with a nervous smile.
I know everyone seems weird not having seen a couple in my whole life, so I tend to be brief with respect to the information I have on that topic. I prefer to think that I care very much my privacy which I'm very attracted to the female gender.
- do you? "I return the question not because he feels interesting, because I have really wanted to hear him talk about his girlfriends, but because it is the only way I can think of to turn their attention away from me.
"No, no. I am not of those.
I look puzzled. Did not is one of those? Is it so hard to speak clearly? I begin to need a dictionary to understand him.
back to stay silent. Our accommodation has been completed before becoming a very uncomfortable situation, so I start to walk faster. I get home and end this forever. It's all too strange. Why has not returned to the capital? Why will not ya?
"Sorry if I said something that has bothered .- apologizes, stopping in the middle of a deserted residential street.
"No, no, I assure you preocupes. with little conviction. At heart I'm really angry. What right has he to come at once and put my life upside down for only a few days?
-Scott, seriously. I prefer to tell me to go into the matter and the thing goes wrong. You're a good guy, I like you. Step fuck up .- insists, stopping taking my arm to avoid being left behind and I turned towards it.
- Why are you so short concise in everything you say?
Her blue eyes scan my face before looking away to the left and take a breath.
- A case is not what to do in Evansville? - Whispers sadly .- I'm not like the outdated and illiterate people of this city is expected to be. So restrain me every time I come, reinvented my life to be pleasing.
-Yo I'm not part of those people .- I get angry at her suggestion. How can you even think that?
- How I can know it, Scott? I lived here eighteen years, the last two feeling ashamed and hiding what it was. I am. Now I come and you say you do not belong to that part of the population, which I trust you when you are not one hundred percent honest with me.
"Yes I am so.
"There's something in you do not block me.
I was silent. I have been honest in everything. The only thing that I mentioned it to my doubts, but him who cares? It's something I can not bring to light, would hurt my parents, my sister. The criticism would be incessant.
"Everyone has their secrets.
- What if you keep these secrets with your friends?
- Do you have hidden or will hide your "real" way to be to yours? - Answer as a question, wanting to find out what you mean.
"No, but you and I are not friends.
has been an edge, but is absolutely right. We are not and at this rate we will not be. My first impression was wrong with him. It's a pretty boy, yeah, you get blinded by complete, but is rare. E unbearable when he wants.
- So what are we discussing?-Me interested.
I do not want to be my friend. Not interest me as such I .- loose with a smile of excitement on his face that puzzled me.
How can be so stupid as to let go that with a smile?
- What the hell are you? Why do I have joined today?
"Because tomorrow I'll go, Scott. And I have little time to work in the field.
- What?
I am increasingly lost. "Now you know when to go? "Tomorrow? "I hate going
rápido." he says, ignoring my question, while broadening its sonrisa. "Maybe I messed up, but I will not go without say it again. Do not let this city will change, Scott. You're a guy worth, do not panic at anything as hard and dark is the path.
I'm about to retort fiercely when lifting a hand and stroked my cheek, forgetting that we continue on the street, that we hardly know. That does not make sense ... does it?
"No ..." I wish Denia
I had spoken to you before, I wish I had known when I was in high school. Could have told me I took it easy .- interrupted.
beginning to think this is a monologue in which I have nothing to do. What if on up in this scene?
While still appearing in my mind more and more questions, Gabriel takes a step toward me. I feel the warmth of his hand against my cheek in contrast to the winter cold. I am so amazed that I did not even blush. No catch you get the sense of the situation.
I do not realize what you do until I feel his lips pressing mine, bumping his nose against mine, your kiss I produced a shiver runs through the body. It's strange, unlike anything I've experienced before.
remember the few kisses that I gave to the girls when I was twelve years. Were stale, fast, non-existent. The Gabriel in change is decided, but soft. There's something new me is indescribable. My heart goes out of his chest, I can not believe this is happening. "My doubts were therefore right to be?
no attempt is separated embrace, not wanting to intensify the kiss. You may have to be me who take the step, but I am still. This is not something I ever expected to pass.
I look for a few seconds, waiting to say something. I want to, drop something to please him. But I have a dry throat and the words do not come to my lips. I do not think to speak again in my life.
"I see .- whispers away .- So long, then .- decide, taking my quiet for a negative. Leaving
rooted to the spot, turns and walks away.
still do not know what happened. I have only clear that my heart will explode.
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